Nerves

I'm about to step out of my comfort zone big time tomorrow. Until now all the traveling I have done has been with friends. Tomorrow I fly out to Miami in order to catch a cruise on Saturday. I decided back in July that I needed to go somewhere warm in the middle of winter and thought a cruise would be perfect. The only thing is that none of my friends could go, but I decided that wouldn't stop me. One coworker told me that everyone needs to do a vacation alone at some point, I agree with her in theory, but now that the day is arriving, I am a little scared. Anyone that knws me, knows that I am a group person, I either go out with a friend or group of friends or stay home. So the next should be very interesting. Since I will be in South Beach for a night, I have researched some gay clubs, it will be interesting to see if I go to one or stay in the hotel room reading all night. The last time I went to a gay club was in Toronto almost 4 years ago when the ex and I went up for my birthday. Needless to say that was the last trip we took together and it also marked the beginning of the end for us. On the other hand, I'm sure travelling alone has got to be better than travelling with him. I just hope I can keep each suitcase under 50 pounds, I always pack heaveya nd end up not wearing half of what I pack ( that is just for weekend fraternity trips) I am halfway packed and I know I am over packed. Oh well, at least I will have plenty of shoes for every situation. Once I am back home, I intend on getting back on track with the gym and weightwatchers. My current plan is to lose about 20-30 pounds before I hopefully go to New Orleans in June. As of right now, I'm not sure if I can get the week off of work. I should know sometime while I'm gone. I just hope I can, since I am going on permanent overnight shift, god help who ever bumps me from that week. At some point they will be working by them self on the afternoon shift on a weekend with me as their relief:) ....